Somethings Change – Others Never Will

So I’m sitting here, with one of the men I love, and one of the many that love me like… there best friend! Isn’t that CUTE! No! It’s really getting on my last nerve. I’m always there “best friend”! I question their presence around me anyways.

Work is going to hell in a hand basket and I’m still deciding what I should do! What should I do! RUN FOR THE HILLS! But I like being the boss. How much do I like being the boss, I don’t know. But I do know I got CEO’s of major corporations scratching their heads as to why I’m making the progress that I’m making. I’m bringing fun back into radio and that makes people nervous!

The Laws of Time Management

The Laws of Time Management
By Brian Tracy

Everything you are today and everything you become in the future will be determined by the way you think and the way you use your time. Your attitude toward time is a critical factor in all you do and everything you accomplish.

The Law of Clarity
The clearer you are about your goals and objectives, the more efficient and effective you will be in achieving them. Clarity accounts for probably 80 percent of success and happiness. People with clear, written goals accomplish far more in a shorter period of time than people without them could ever imagine.

The Law of Priorities
Your ability to set clear and accurate priorities on your time determines the entire quality of your life. To achieve great things, you must always be concentrating on the small number of activities that contribute the greatest value to your life and your work.

The Law of Posteriorities
Before you start something new, you must discontinue something old. You can gain control of your life only to the degree to which you stop doing things that are no longer as valuable or as important to you as other thing you could be doing.

The Law of the Most Valuable Asset
Your most valuable asset is your earning ability. Your ability to earn money is the most valuable asset you have. Your earning ability is a depreciating asset, like a car or a piece of equipment. You must continually maintain and upgrade the quality of your earning ability to keep yourself at the same high level of productivity, performance and output.

The Law of Planning
Every minute spent in planning saves ten minutes in execution. The purpose of “personal strategic planning” is for you to increase your “return energy,” and return on the mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual capital you have invested in your life and career.

The Law of Rewards
Your rewards will always be determined by your results. You will always be paid in direct proportion to what you do, how well you do it, and the difficulty in replacing you. The fastest way to get paid more and promoted faster is for you to achieve a greater quality and quantity of results for your company and yourself.

The Law of Sequentiality
Time management enables you to control the sequence of events in your life. Your entire life today is the sum total result of the quality of your choices and decisions to this moment. If you are not happy with any part of your life, it is up to you to begin to make different choices and better decisions.

Action Exercise
Analyze the way you spend a typical day or a typical week. What are the things you need to do more of, sooner, in order to improve the quality and quantity of your output and results?

(takes deep breath..) BRING ON THE HOLIDAY MANIA!!

1. Okay… Sanitary wipes… Check!
2. Boxes of tissues? Check!
3. Herbal Tea?? Check!
4. Lemons?? Check! (Okay… It’s just lemon aid! But it’s Paul Newmans Virgin Lemon Aid! Which in my opinion is safer then the possible GMO lemon laying at the bottom of my fridge)
5. Agave?? Check!
6. Vodka??? ….Vodka??? …. Ops! There it is! CHECK! (I may or may not have had a shot before writing this…)
7. And MOST importantly, Oraganol… CHECK!

Okay! Now I’m officaly ready to begin to heal from this wicked virus that has infected our city.. However it’s not a “virus” if you want to be scientific! Its that other one… Bacterial Infection…  Kicked me down and with my check list in order I fought it faster then any of the others… Faster then the one that gave it to me! Thats a record for myself, I must say! Lost a few pounds right before the holidays! How perfect! Couldn’t have got this after the holidays! Noooooo! That would be to easy!!! You gotta WORK it off just like the rest of us!

Oh what the holiday’s do to us! My nieces birthday is on the 3rd, but we’re having her party this weekend! So I HAVE to be well for that! A chance to get under my brothers Baby Momma’s skin! YES, THANK YOU! She really is borderline evil… I want to just pretend that its some kind of hormonal embalance or something because my niece has some of Her flowing through her veins. But that’s another blog!

And of COURSE! There is the big TURKEY DAY it’s self! Don’t get me wrong! I get the meaning of this holiday and the tradition that it holds in some families lives… Yet to me, on the outside Thanksgiving looks so nice and filling but really, are these not the same people we (speaking for us white people) later stole their (meaning Indians) land from and forced them to practice the christian religion? (Among other violient things, but it is the holidays!) So in essences aren’t we celebrating how coniving human being’s are to one another? Or are we just reliving history, showing thanks for one another… but uhhh, just today… Tomorrow… Ya… Tomorrow you’ll be infected with this wicked bacterial infection! And lets hope it doesn’t kill ya!  

I think the holiday’s are difficult for everyone, but it really comes down to how you make of it! I remember feeling like Tiny Tim many of years. And other years having so much stuff I was almost embarressed. (Almost) And no matter how many times I tell my Mother, “Mom, I don’t care if it’s not a big Christmas!” She except that as answer. As the pressure BUILDS we benevolently find presents stashed from a few years back that are just PERFECT for this year! And thank the Lord, the pressure starts to equalize! It’s like a ticking time bomb… All of us, stuck in traffic. Finding parking. Getting a cart… Battling through the isles! Bargin shopping looking at all the crap you just KNOW is going to be 40% off the f*ckin’ day AFTER Christmas! Crossing people off your list with a little tallie on the side of how much money you have left. Going to another store finding the exact same thing you JUST bought for $10 less!!! Which is ALL fine and dandy, but now you got to buy that one, go BACK to those greedy bastards and wait in a line to return it… It’s complete and utter MAYHEM! Yet we do this to ourselves, EVERY YEAR!

So now that I’m at 89% healthy… (cough, cough) Okay… 80% back to health! I declare, BRING ON THE HOLIDAY MANIA! I’m as ready as I’ll ever be! Thats for damn sure! And the paycheck… yeah… Not looking to well considering the holiday and sick time… But we’ll just keep on keepin’ on!

Ball in… MY court!

It truly fascinates me when a blast from the past comes marching in like a parade… Did they forget why we stopped talking in the first place? Although, I will admit, my ego does puff up a bit when this happens. Like ‘see, told you would miss me’! And that ego couldn’t have puffed up any more than it did today! Return of the ex! Not just any ex, but THE ex! The first love of my life. The first man I really thought I could have a future with! The same mother f*cker that stood up at my fathers funeral and spoke about what a great guy my dad was and how if it wasn’t for him he would have never met me, (his Mom was roommates with my Dad). Bla, bla, bla, fucking BLAHH! Come to find out a few months later, he was living with another girl… Who he ended up having a kid with. My heart was broken. But I was strong. Losing him wasn’t shit compared to losing my Father.

Yet for some reason, I got the delicious taste of revenge. Today he came back with his tail in between his legs like the dog he is. Last time we spoke was in 2006. He said to me, “I think I made the wrong decision…” I responded with “Yea.. Your just now figuring that out?” It was the most glorious 7 words I have yet to hear. I know a leopard doesn’t change its spots. Not to mention I closed that chapter in my novel called life, a LONG time ago. But, I will say that it was so rewarding to know, it wasn’t me… I mean I told myself that a thousands times, to the point where I made myself believe it. However, to hear from the perpetrators mouth himself was golden!

Day 2

After a thorough conversation about how he started his life with the wrong chick, and how he had a lot of work to do, he’s actually really trying. I told him he had A LOT of work to do, and there was no guarantee any of it would work. Now I’m looking at how this could be used for counter attack on the man I truly want to be with. So I just got to lead this on a little bit longer, untill he calls to kick it and then he calls to try to win me back, it will put my ego on a pedestal. Is that wrong. OF COURSE NOT! I love it! Even if he doesn’t call I will still talk about it and laugh! I play the game so hard now, I should be an olympian!

The Y2K Diet

Is there something in the air that I don’t know about! Not one, but 2, yes 2 of my computers have crashed in the last month… And when I say crash, I mean, Windows won’t even start up, CRASH (insert sound of bomb dropping from the sky here)! Are you kidding me!? One of my machines I can understand going out on me. It’s been working and tugging along since 2000! So in electronics age, it should have already been dead! 

I wonder if there is a museum of technology. All the extinct pieces of junk that aren’t worth two pence! For instance when I was desperately searching for my recovery disk, I ran across my very first mp3 player. It was the size of a Walkman cassette player. I don’t think I ever figured out how to put music on there. Actually, I think I managed to get one song on there after hours of toying with the damn thing. Now I throw my iPod in my purse and can never find the damn thing! Computers went from filling up rooms to the size of a paperback book! We have TV’s in the head-rests of our cars! (I am not one of them however.) We have GPS that can tell you exactly where in the hell you are even if you dropped out of the sky in the middle of Timbuctoo! We have phones that can take pictures, go on the internet, play music on, hell, some of them you can even WATCH TV on!  And we wonder why our society has gotten to be gigantic?! PLEASE! If I hear about another “study” on whats happening to the level of obesity  in this  country, I’m burning down the next fast food joint I see! (Wow! Just imagine THAT grease fire!)  

How about you study the effects of High Fructose Corn Syrup. How about you study the effects that these conventional “foods” (or what I like to call, science experiments) have on us. You shouldn’t need a dictionary and a periodic table to figure out what the hell your eating. There is one thing that we have REALLY fucked up on in this country is our food supply. It is so poisoned with CHEMICALS that they call FOOD that we are developing diabetes, autism, ADHD, cancer, cancer, and more cancer then EVER before! Yet no one is saying, ‘Umm… Stop eating chemicals.’ This world is so over ran by greed it makes me sick! No one cares if your Aunt Laura was the sweetest lady in the world, went to church every sunday, never cursed, and took 20 foster care kids into her home! Frito’s, Coke, Pepsi, Mc Donalds, Monsanto, or BP (just to name a quick few) sure as hell don’t. And if you’re relying on the FDA to help, you might as well just wait for the resurrection of Jesus, because I bet THAT will happen long before the FDA fixes a damn thing! Oh, and if  you didn’t know, the FDA is heavily influenced and ran by Monsanto. And if you don’t know about Monsanto, your probably being killed by them as we speak! They are the “inventors” of GMO, or Genetically Modified Organisms… YEAH! That sounds like a GREAT thing to put in our bodies.  They are also the inventors of ROUND UP! And guess what their GMO foods are designed to do that natures foods are NOT designed to do… GMO’s wont DIE when they are sprayed with pesticide, (ie round-up), because they have been genetically modified to be resistant to it! Imagine that!

Technology is outta control! And the government isn’t doing shit about it. Why? Because Monsanto is making SO much money the can afford to pay people like Ronald Rumsfield to make sure they don’t fix a damn thing! In the mean time, lowering the health and well-being of our nation is NOT part of their plan. Making billions and billions and billions of dollars however is! Because we ALL purchase conventional foods at one time or another, because that’s ALL that is available to us! Well, think about this little tidbit of information. Next time you read the “ingredients” on the back of a food and it has the word “corn,” know that, that ”corn” they used is 99% more than likely GMO corn… Same for potatoes… In fact it’s damn near impossible in our country to even get “food” that doesn’t have GMO’s in it.

It’s a damn shame! And the mass  media is going to lie to you, because their networks are sponsored by these food and drug company’s. And the campaign money for some of these major political elected positions, came from the same people! Is money REALLY more important than our nations well-being? Well to some, I guess it is…

Physically Ill… But kinda in a good way!

 PART ONE: If loving you is wrong, I don’t wanna be right

Aug. 11th, 2010

One may ask how do you become ill in a good way. Well, all I can say is no one has made me feel sweaty palms since I was 16. And no one has made me so damn nervouse, I couldn’t pee… (I know, a little to much info, but it’s true) I was so nervous, when I went to the bathroom, I couldn’t pee. I litterally get weak in the knees. He kissed me goodbye though. But I get so sad everytime he leaves. But it’s a different kind of sad! I just can’t put it into words, and thats a very rare thing for me. I work for media… Media requires words, sounds, pictures, web, bla bla bla. And I have a gift of using all of those mediums. A gift I’m honored and truely blessed to have. But I can’t put this in words.

PART TWO: Hurts So Good

Aug. 25th, 2010

Wow… Are we back to seeing each more then once a month. To early to tell, but I’m glad I got to see him. I wish I could REALLY tell him how I really feel. You know, all the things that those relationship books tell woman not to say! Like, the reason I stutter so much is because Im nervouse as all hell. That the reason I hold my breath is because I can’t breathe. That the reason I was sweating perfusly really was because of him and not the 85 degree weather that we are having. That I think about him everyday. And that I look for things to not like about him and can’t find any. Only that I truely care for him like no other person I’ve ever met, and that scares me. I’ve said that in the past, but I never ment it like I do with him.

I didn’t really know if I believed in a soul mate until him. I never really thought I would find someone like him. I just keep having faith. And request that the most benevolent outcome will prevail for both of us, in the most timely matter. Thank you. *It’s just a little prayer I have begun to start saying more and more.*

Who killed the real slim shady please stand up, please stand up!

Wigga don’t act like a BITCH!

So WHO killed the real Slim Shady? That would probably be Kim… Hooker! She ruined a perfectly good rapper! Now he’s rappin about how he LOVES the way you lie… REALLY? I love the way I leave the loser p.o.s. after I caught them in a lie! You have got to be kidding me! Eminem, Slim Shady, Marshall fucking Mathers, YOU GOT ME PISSED OFF! I’m up at 7:41 am thinking about your crappy song! Maybe I wouldn’t hate it so much if the you didn’t have Rihanna singing the damn chorus and hook! Weak ass bitches you both look like.

I’ve been hit by a man once, (which if you have seen the video you would know, it’s basically about a domestically violent relationship) and never again. He got me confused with one of those weak bitches that don’t give a fuck about them self! “Your just gonna stand there and watch me cry, that’s all right. I love the way you lie” NO BITCH! It goes like this, “I love the way you lie face down in the fucking mud! You fucking lie again you’ll be laying in your own blood” Keep it real! We need to be up lifting each other to be STRONGER then the fakes, haters, and ESPECIALLY liars! Not to just “Stand there and watch me burn.” You like the way it hurts? Well BURN BABY BURN! Burn this fucking video and this fucking song too! While you’re at it burn the whole damn Recovery album! SLIM! PLEASE GET BACK ON THE VICODIN! Drink, smoke herb, damn it do something! If I have to see or hear that fucking whore bag sing the hook one more time… Lets just say it’s not going to be PRETTY!

PLEASE SHADY! Transform your self back to the “I just don’t give a fuck” man I know and love you to be! Your daughter, (YEAH bitch! I’m going there!) is going to end up being beaten by or beating on the man she’s with. Which in my opinion, she got it from her Momma! ONE DAY you’ll learn this isn’t a subject to glorify. Marshall, your Uncle killed himself over a bitch… Why would send the message of no escape in a relationship that you yourself should know, isn’t true. I’m setting a bounty out for Kim. Someones gotta be held responsible for this! Because I’ll nbe DAMNED if I’m going to stand their and let anyone BURN ME! You can keep YOUR hurt if you like it so much! I’m a RISE above that BULL SHIT, and PISS on your fire your trying to BURN me with, BITCH!

*Ehem* Sorry… As one can tell, I don’t like this song, I MOSTLY don’t like the video, and I’m not hating, I’m keeping it ONE HUNDRED!